Stings

Sometimes I think being a Scorpio is such a curse. True, we rule the house of sex, and while I dare say that our partners can be quite lucky because we're always lusty and passionate, we have so many bad sides as well.

I'm a Scorpio, and I can be really, uh, prickly. I have to know what's going on, I have to know how a person feels about me, etc, etc. I have a one-track mind. If I set my mind on something, or someone... then there's no turning back. I give my all, and though I know it's insane, utterly wrong, and impossible, I expect all as well. And then there's the loyalty. Ugh, I'm loyal to a fault. I just don't seem to get it that there are other people out there. No, I have to be with this one person I want to be with, even if that person is starting to get suffocated. Ugh. Ugh. Ugh.

Now, maybe it's just me... or maybe these apply to all Scorpios, I'm not really sure. But if there's one thing I'm sure of, it's that I still need to learn how to toughen up. I'm so sensitive--sensitive of how others make me feel, and sensitive to how others feel. But right now, truth be told, I just want to be numb. I wish I didn't care about people, because in caring, you always risk hurting yourself. I guess I just don't have enough bad experiences in life that's why I'm too trusting, too open, too soft. To be tough, I still need to go through so many hardships and pains. The crazy thing is, I don't know which is worse: being tough 'coz you've been through a lot, or being sensitive 'coz you've never really been hurt.